im really sry for not blogging these few days.
things had gone haywire for me.
grandad's death,family,personal probs and some shits.

right now,im having a big fight with mom.
havent been talking to her for 3 days straight.
i dun wish to tell wat happened.
maybe one day i will but right now,i really need to get things back on track.

Naz,if i cant go out on the 19 june,just go on with ma cuz alrite?
but i'll try my best to be available on dat date.
dun wry.
Azie,i'll relink u as soon as things are fine alright kick-ass-bud?
Mus,practice on the tabla for the song dat we're planning to shhhh!
Farah,i'll link u soon.

i'll not be blogging till things are fine.
keep on tagging.i'll always reply ur tags.
hope u guys understand my shitty situations.
im fucked up right now.

i cant seem to get over myself after grandad's death.
he's been through a lot.ups and downs,he's been through almost everything.
he's one of my greatest grandad dat i'll nvr forget.
once when i was an infant,he brought me to parks and playgrounds along with my sis.
he gave me and my family smiles every time he came to my hse.
he jokes,laughs,shared stories and more.
he's a strong person.he's brave,courageous.
he told us a story abt how he escaped from being captured by the Japanese during the WW2.
he motivated us in everything.
he told us no matter wat we do,dun give up.
he was always there when we needed help.
he's a holy man.
he respect his Muslim fully.
his wife died.

but that was years back.
he was being admitted to a old folk's home at SWAMI Home in Sembawang in 2005.
nobody wants to take care of him.not even his children.
after he was being admitted,we(my family)were the first ones to visit him.
not his children.
i just cant seem to understand why his children dun wanna took care of their own father who had taken care of them very well since they were born?
he's become half-mute person in the mid of 2006.
he cant talk properly.
he cant walked too.
he had to be wheel-chaired.
we often visited him.
when we asked him whether is there any presence of his chidren,he replies "they came only once and dat's it."
in 2007,he's became totally illed.
in Feb 2008,he fell of the wheel chair and fall on his head.
he had to be operated.
he's being hospitalised for 5 months at the old folks home before being brought into the TTSH after reports dat his illness was terrible.
he died at 7.50 am on last thursday.
we'll always pray for him 24/7.
he'll always be remembered.

DUN WANNA TYPE NO MORE.
TILL HERE,LEMME GO.
BYE.